Confessions of a shopaholic!

Why is it always so difficult to make these choices! Argh!

A friend who is holidaying in London sweetly asked me if I wanted anything. I promptly said No (for reasons you will understand as you read along), she too was taken aback, but signed off with a let me know in case u think of something! Well, I thought I could ask her to get me a dress, the maxi is back in fashion. So I went online to sites well visited, and started to look for the perfect maxi dress, not too flowy, not too clingy! And yes, I did find one, but then just for the "heck of it", I thought let me check the other sections. A grave mistake, a mistake made too often, and then all hell broke loose. Look at that jumpsuit, it is just so nice, would look so great with those heels, and that sling bag. Soon enough I was in the virtual dressing room, trying out various combinations, from cardigans, to dresses, to shorts, to jackets! And no prizes for guessing, the simple 'maxi dress shopping expedition' turned to an armful load (cart load in the virtual world, to be more specific) of shorts, dresses, coats et al. 

A decade ago!

Things as they were 10 years ago-

1) School, Std XI, the most important things at that point were studying, sports, boys, gossip, telephone (the good old fixed landline), and not in the same order

2) I was much thinner

3) The real world seemed like a distant future

4) There were no mobiles for school going students

5) I did not know most of the people who now are an integral part of my life

6) A lot of my current acquaintances were my best friends

7) ICQ was the only social network available

8) I could fill my wardrobe in just Rs. 1000/-

9)  "A Dance Party" was such an exciting concept

10) Delhi Roads had literally no traffic

God! I feel ancient

You had me at Hello!

Don't you sometimes wonder, if it really happens that 2 strangers meet, and they feel a connection between them, and not only is it completely unexpected, it is absolutely beautiful!

Can two people just randomly meet by fate, and each has an innate "knowing" that this is it? Do these scenarios really end up with a happy ending?

It does happen in real life, you meet someone and later you realize it was meant to be. Gradually you see how the universe conspired so that your paths cross! ah, it is so cinematic...life is but a dream!

Laagi tumse mann ki lagan, lagan laagi tumse mann ki lagan


Sitting in an aircraft, listening to him hum the tune and a smile curves your lips and you start humming the song too...and then you chide yourself, "hey I have just met him!"

Listening to the song, sitting next to him while he drives us back home, brings back the same smile, the flutter and the warmth it did 5 years back!

I peer at him, the holy fire lighting up his face, blinking back my tears of joy, and he can't help but smile...a smile that says " You had me at hello".

The black beads, the color red signifying the bond that was meant to be created! You just had me at hello!

Under the microscope! Layers of our life....

While clearing out a lot of junk from my hard drive today, I found a story that I had started to write 3 years back, a romantic story (maybe because of the overdose of romance in my brain!). I thought I will finish it but my fingers were hesitating to type. The voice inside me that gave me words and expressions, was awfully silent!


The voice gave direction to my thoughts and words, be it penning down in my diary, my daily interactions with my friends and family, a friendly discussion about politics, or a heated argument with someone! So why was it silent?


I realized that its because there are a hundred things around me that I was ignoring because of my own personal humdrum. In the course I was ignoring the little voice in me too! And well, like me it has a mind of it own and short temper too (it seems), and decided to abandon me till I realize its absence.


Its strange really, how we are stuck in our own petty dramas. And I am speaking about most people I have seen around me in Delhi. Few will pretend to care, but forget the real cause in the drive to become too big themselves. Some will just ignore it like a fly buzzing in the background score.


Off lately so much has been happening in the world, Be it Egypt, Libya, Tunisia, and the commonality between them is the demographic that is driving these revolutions.


As educated youth of one of the biggest democracies, there is so much that we can do. However, around me here, there seems to be a lack of passion and drive, and the personal goals and problems seem to have taken front seat!


The rampant corruption and shocking scandals involving every possible powerful entity  of the country elicits at max a cynical 'This is India, This is the system".

Leap of Faith! or is it now a Reversal

I am down with Viral, and the solitude has given me so much time to think about the past few events of life, and how they have changed my outlook towards life and people. Since last year, there has been so much drama, and so many changes of note. But what is most important is that I have managed to live up to the promise I made to myself, to be happy no matter what. To not let, small portions of my life affect the more important and bigger ones!

Happy and Positive outlook towards life harbors so much positive energy and I have started to notice the difference. The old sunshine, the old spark is finally beginning to return at its original form.

The past has seen a lot, but there is a positive note in that. The realization of true friendship has given me the clarity of who would stand close to me, holding me up strongly, and who would turn their back and pass judgement.

The encounter with murky secrets and the true face of someone so very close sometimes ends up scaring you and making you feel very insecure about your decision taking ability. But then all I can say was that I was a fool to ignore the signs. I guess being the out-and out optimist I had hoped that the signs were wrong and my heart was right. Alas!

The fickleness of relationships sometimes makes me wonder, if I put my trust in people too fast, or too much. But the thought of becoming someone else also scares me. Well, I guess its a leap of faith, every time you meet someone new and make them a part of your life. But will I be able to do it all over again?